So their is this boy, and I am pretty sure I love him. He is hot, funny, knows how to makes me smiles and gives me butterflies every time I talk to him. He is basically my prince charming and I want him here with me to cuddle me and hold me close, to kiss me in the rain and walk hand in hand down the street. I want him to pick me up and tickle me until I can't take it anymore. He has me tell him stories and I wish some of them would come true in real life. I would move to the end of the world for him. I want to be able to take those trips of a lifetime not with friends, but with someone I love and who loves me back.
Love is truly something you find and I believe I have found my definition of love.
xox Jaeyde
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
To Take or To Let Go
When does one realize that their is no future? I have been holding onto someone for quite some time now but I do not know anymore if it is worth it, or if it will even go somewhere. I am getting all these signs that it will but the more I think about it and what has happened over the past few months the more I doubt that it will.
When is the right time to let go of your happily ever after and how long do you fight until their is no hope left. A new beginning is needed and a fresh start, somewhere where people do not know you or your past. Your past will always be their but it does not have to haunt you. Accept that it is over or fight until you lose faith. I have not lost faith and I will fight until I have won or until that faith is taken from me and I have none left.
xox Jaeyde
When is the right time to let go of your happily ever after and how long do you fight until their is no hope left. A new beginning is needed and a fresh start, somewhere where people do not know you or your past. Your past will always be their but it does not have to haunt you. Accept that it is over or fight until you lose faith. I have not lost faith and I will fight until I have won or until that faith is taken from me and I have none left.
xox Jaeyde
Saturday, May 24, 2008
A New Beginning
Sometimes to find out what went wrong you need to not look at what happened but look at yourself and see how you have changed. I didn't believe that I had changed until the majority of my friends all told me I was somehow different. Sometimes to find out what needs fixing you need to look at yourself and fix yourself before you can fix your life with others.
xox Jaeyde
xox Jaeyde
Friday, May 23, 2008
The Perfect Shoes...
Every girl knows, when she needs something to go with a new outfit she will not rest until she finds that item. In my case, I got slightly side tracked. Intending to buy only shoes I ended up buying some shirts and shorts, and checking out the eye candy of course. Shopping is for sure my anti-stress. It helps me take my mind off of reality for a few hours and allows me to relax and enjoy myself. And of course, I found my perfect shoes.
xox Jaeyde
xox Jaeyde
Boys + Lies Does Not = Happily Ever After
As a teenager in high school you go through the typical teenage drama, girl likes boy, boy lies to girl to get in her pants, girl is heartbroken. Why is it that this childish behavior appears to continue even after you are out of high school?
"After a while we learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love. We learn that kisses don’t always mean something, promises can be broken just as quickly as they were made and sometimes goodbyes really are forever."
I found this quote 8 years ago, and no matter who I meet or who I know it still rings true to this day. About 8 months ago I met a boy, he was nice, charming, funny and seemed to actually care for me. We talked everyday and eventually I fell for him, pretty hard. My only mistake, giving him my heart. At the end, all I was left with is a shattered heart and a lot of wasted tears crying over someone who went from being madly in love with me one day, and telling another girl he loves her the very next. It has been extremely hard for me to accept this and I am not saying I'm still not hurt. I will be hurting for a while, but I can't focus on the negative. Honestly, if a guy is gonna lie to you fuck them! If they can't be honest with you then there is no future and no trust. A relationship without trust doesn't work, and never will.
You think I would have learned this by now, but here I am 8 years later and I am still finding the wrong kind of guy. The 1st time, the guy liked me but fucked off with my best friend. The 2nd time, I found a prince who has a psycho ex stalking him and causing drama all the time. The 3rd time, he moved away for a girl then told me he loved me and moved back for me only to end up dating a clingy bitchy Barbie doll. The 4th time, a teenage crush randomly admitted he is in love with me after not talking to me for over a year. The 5th time, I fell for someone who didn't care enough to try and make things work. The 6th time, I fell for someone who lives over 5000 miles away but I screwed up and I will do anything and everything to get him back...and I mean "EVERYTHING!!!". I am sure you get the picture by now.
The funny thing is, after all of this I still like someone. My only problem now, he is over 5000 miles away and doesn't know it. I am shy when I really like someone because I don't want to do anything that will ruin what could be. I will be the first to admit I cannot do long distance relationships well. When I am having a bad day I need someone I can run to and have them hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok. For this guy though, I am willing to try and take a risk. It will be something new and hard and scary at times, but I believe if you truly like someone and they like you just as much, you can make it work.
Relationships are hard, even without guys saying one thing and doing another. Boys + Lies will never get you your prince charming. When you do find your happily ever after there will be no lies, no secrets, lots of trust and a lifetime of happiness to follow.
xox Jaeyde
"After a while we learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love. We learn that kisses don’t always mean something, promises can be broken just as quickly as they were made and sometimes goodbyes really are forever."
I found this quote 8 years ago, and no matter who I meet or who I know it still rings true to this day. About 8 months ago I met a boy, he was nice, charming, funny and seemed to actually care for me. We talked everyday and eventually I fell for him, pretty hard. My only mistake, giving him my heart. At the end, all I was left with is a shattered heart and a lot of wasted tears crying over someone who went from being madly in love with me one day, and telling another girl he loves her the very next. It has been extremely hard for me to accept this and I am not saying I'm still not hurt. I will be hurting for a while, but I can't focus on the negative. Honestly, if a guy is gonna lie to you fuck them! If they can't be honest with you then there is no future and no trust. A relationship without trust doesn't work, and never will.
You think I would have learned this by now, but here I am 8 years later and I am still finding the wrong kind of guy. The 1st time, the guy liked me but fucked off with my best friend. The 2nd time, I found a prince who has a psycho ex stalking him and causing drama all the time. The 3rd time, he moved away for a girl then told me he loved me and moved back for me only to end up dating a clingy bitchy Barbie doll. The 4th time, a teenage crush randomly admitted he is in love with me after not talking to me for over a year. The 5th time, I fell for someone who didn't care enough to try and make things work. The 6th time, I fell for someone who lives over 5000 miles away but I screwed up and I will do anything and everything to get him back...and I mean "EVERYTHING!!!". I am sure you get the picture by now.
The funny thing is, after all of this I still like someone. My only problem now, he is over 5000 miles away and doesn't know it. I am shy when I really like someone because I don't want to do anything that will ruin what could be. I will be the first to admit I cannot do long distance relationships well. When I am having a bad day I need someone I can run to and have them hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok. For this guy though, I am willing to try and take a risk. It will be something new and hard and scary at times, but I believe if you truly like someone and they like you just as much, you can make it work.
Relationships are hard, even without guys saying one thing and doing another. Boys + Lies will never get you your prince charming. When you do find your happily ever after there will be no lies, no secrets, lots of trust and a lifetime of happiness to follow.
xox Jaeyde
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